And I am answering the call...
I never thought I would feel this way. Rounds and rounds of shopping done, lists made, planned and re-planned everything, empty shelves, bags packed, clean room and my heart - filled with vacuum.
Amusingly, Most my bags are filled with "Blue" color. I don't know why I choose that color each time I shop. When someone asks me for my favorite color, I say "Black" or even "White" or "depends" but still I choose blue when given a choice!
And right now, I am Blue!
Cried like a baby when my mother talked about being an independent child and taking care of myself in Hyderabad. I always wanted this life but my empty room makes me feel so depressed. Writing this post is another atrocious experience.
All final preparations have been done, Last calls from best friends and last messages from cousins have been wrapped up. But how should I wrap up this empty feeling?
Like I am running away from my responsibilities, Like I am losing something very near to me, Like I am being self centered and pursuing my dreams on cost of my duties. Duties of being my parent's kid, of being a friend, of being there for people who have always been there for me, of being a shoulder to cry on when mum had something to share!!
I love my mom, my dad n even "Gelu"!!!
Why can't I stay at home? Why am I so aspirational? Why can't I make a future in the city where I was born? Why am I doing this.... to myself and my near ones? Why is it so important to constantly keep running?
Anyways, my priorities are set, the choices are made, and I made them.
My parents supported me through out with this and I just can't thank them enough for believing me and my dreams. My mom has always been my support system and somewhere I want to live upto her expectations , thus the chase... thus the burning desire to be the best! I don't know how crucial this move is in to shape my future, how much I will be able 2 achieve out of it, how much worth it is of all the sacrifice..
All I know is, it’s now or never.
And I don't want to regret later for the choices I made.
It’s not easy, well nothing is!
And I am going to give it my best shot.
So, adios to everyone! I may be busy there but gimme a call whenever you want to! I'll always be there!
Love You Guys!!!
P.S: I'll especially miss you: Gelu ! the long conversations on phone, the shopping, the coffee n the couches, your advice, n everything!! I'll miss them all! Please stay in touch!!!
I never thought I would feel this way. Rounds and rounds of shopping done, lists made, planned and re-planned everything, empty shelves, bags packed, clean room and my heart - filled with vacuum.
Amusingly, Most my bags are filled with "Blue" color. I don't know why I choose that color each time I shop. When someone asks me for my favorite color, I say "Black" or even "White" or "depends" but still I choose blue when given a choice!
And right now, I am Blue!
Cried like a baby when my mother talked about being an independent child and taking care of myself in Hyderabad. I always wanted this life but my empty room makes me feel so depressed. Writing this post is another atrocious experience.
All final preparations have been done, Last calls from best friends and last messages from cousins have been wrapped up. But how should I wrap up this empty feeling?
Like I am running away from my responsibilities, Like I am losing something very near to me, Like I am being self centered and pursuing my dreams on cost of my duties. Duties of being my parent's kid, of being a friend, of being there for people who have always been there for me, of being a shoulder to cry on when mum had something to share!!
I love my mom, my dad n even "Gelu"!!!
Why can't I stay at home? Why am I so aspirational? Why can't I make a future in the city where I was born? Why am I doing this.... to myself and my near ones? Why is it so important to constantly keep running?
Anyways, my priorities are set, the choices are made, and I made them.
My parents supported me through out with this and I just can't thank them enough for believing me and my dreams. My mom has always been my support system and somewhere I want to live upto her expectations , thus the chase... thus the burning desire to be the best! I don't know how crucial this move is in to shape my future, how much I will be able 2 achieve out of it, how much worth it is of all the sacrifice..
All I know is, it’s now or never.
And I don't want to regret later for the choices I made.
It’s not easy, well nothing is!
And I am going to give it my best shot.
So, adios to everyone! I may be busy there but gimme a call whenever you want to! I'll always be there!
Love You Guys!!!
P.S: I'll especially miss you: Gelu ! the long conversations on phone, the shopping, the coffee n the couches, your advice, n everything!! I'll miss them all! Please stay in touch!!!
